wander.

active allowance


i love

moments

of not trying

of surrender

of perfect flow

 

i used to think

that these

rare moments

are only given

and that we

have no way

of creating them

for ourselves

 

that they are bestowed

in unpredictable and infrequent

moments of epiphany and insight

and that we

are powerless

to call them

upon ourselves

 

but i’m finding

that these moments

of alignment and ease

can become less arcane

if we choose

to surrender

 

more often

than not

 

most people

think of

surrendering

as a passive thing

that takes place post all active things

something that is done upon reaching the end

something that is done upon resignation

something that is

done

upon

a retired actor

after retired actions

 

but less often

is surrender

understood

as something

to do

per choice

 

but i’m finding

that for most of us

our most comfortable state

is one of faux power

and fake control

 

we are told

to take the reins

to guide things

make things

force things

 

so we strategize

we scheme

and plan

a lot

 

we feel comfy

with our gossamer reins

sitting atop our hobby horses

 

until the trying

becomes too trying

and unbearable to bear

 

then we fall apart

then we fall down

then we fall in

some line

where

 

more often

than not

 

we find

a flow

an ease

a rhythm

 

but we don’t

have to wait

for our downfall

 

while still standing tall

we can decide

in an active state

 

to rest

to allow

to surrender

 

to

 

and this

active allowance

 

this is where

we become

 

the instrument of the music

the words of the lyrics

the voice of the song


musings inspired by A Fortunate Downfall


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